strikerfreeze's Blog

Okay, love is a powerful thing, so I've heard. There are also more than one kind of love out there too. I had only felt the "yeah, I love my family and friends" one. But now, well actually a month ago, I found the other love inside. I "fell in love" with someone, about a month ago, but I have 2 problems. One, I have no clue how she feels about me. Two, we haven't spoken for almost a week now, ever since we talked about this situation. Yes, I do still love her to the utmost extent, but I begin to think she might not like me back. And if we don't talk, how will I know. Well, yes, I have be banned from this site by my parents, but I still snuck on here to talk to her, and now she's gone.

I don't really understand this "love" thing yet, it's still definitely new to me. I just want to know how this all ends, but then again, I could go for a happy ending. But that's just me. Sorry for the bore of a story, I'm done now.

I still love you JJJeWWWy!

I don't really understand why this happens to me. I was having a good day, while I was sleeping, until I was awakened by my dad's voice. As soon as I heard him, my day started for the negative direction. Then I went to school, and first thing that happens, "Hi Evan!!" Someone who likes me shouts out to me. I look over and a hug from nowhere makes my day even worse. Considering the fact that she already has a boyfriend. (I hate it when this happens)  Not only does she have a boyfriend, but her boyfriend is one of my friends, so it makes the situation not fun.

Afterwards, well at the end of the day in school,I found out one of my good friends smokes, drinks, and gets high after school, and on most weekends. I figured it wouldn't get any worse, until he said, I should try it some time. HECK NO!!!! But the fact that he said that to me, is what gets me.

Well, that was nice to get off my chest. *sigh* Sometimes, I don't like people. And that is rarely. I normally like a lot of people, but I hate the choices they make sometimes, you know?

I think I may be crazy, but I know when I like someone. The truth is, though, I can never ever EVER know if the person likes me back. I mean I get scared, nervous, and antsy, just thinking about it. I always get a response later in life, but it always feels "too late" for some reason. Oddly strange and strangely odd, I always say.

I really am on the topic of romance, thanks for letting me kno that earlier, JJJeWWWy! ^-^

Sonic rules!!!!

I find it strange that I can only be friends with girls. It's weird, because every girl I've liked (except for 2nd grade) always says "I like us better as friends." I think it's because I'm so nice, and caring. That they just want me to stick around. You know, to be there when they are feeling down, or congratulate them when they're feeling up. But I do all that too. So, I'm a little confused. But it is okay, I guess my main function, is to not get married, but to befriend as many people as possible.

I feel like such a downer, but it isn't meant to sound that way.